I was thinking of something today and it upset me.
So right now I’m with my brother and a couple friends and of course, we’re smoking. It made me think about all the times I would smoke by myself when I was living in Oregon. Robert was showing me his O’s and I realized that I’ve smoked for a long time and yet I’ve never tried to play with the smoke at all. It was all business for me.
But I’m back now. And coming back will not be for nothing.
I got a job yesterday. It’s a start I think.
THIS, is part of the “healing process”
I need to stop holding everything in. I guess we’ll see how this goes.
i used to be a really smart kid who was “going places” but now i just cry a lot and eat all the food in the fridge